( there's defeat in her voice, resignation; she doesn't want to push it any further than she has. the last two weeks have been hard enough without turning things with Jason sour, too. )
And next time I tell Hiro no first? Don't come and try to change my mind. [Because he sadly assumes that's a big part of this conversation. He hasn't pointed it out yet. He hasn't even pointed out that he's afraid of what Clarke will make of Hiro's involvement with the Seelie. He just assumes she knows, especially if she knows to come to him. But he's relieved that he doesn't have to dig that particular knife in.
Don't misunderstand me talking to you about this. I understood why you wouldn't let him come to the Station to my office, it risks being around the Seelie, even if it is in Dorchadas. I get that.
I wanted to take him to the university because it's right by Redgate, which is under Unseelie control. And that person you mentioned, Loki? One of the professors. Out of anywhere that would be safe, where he wouldn't need protection, I thought that the university would be it.
I was trying to be considerate of the court boundaries, since I thought that was where the problem was. I'm not an idiot, Jason. Being close to the Seelie would get me killed after what happened at the Citadel, and I'd never put Hiro in danger like that.
[He rubs at his face and takes a moment to respond.]
Then ask next time. What it seemed to me is that you knew I wasn't gonna be happy with it, so you tried to cut corners from the start. I'm not a tight ass, Clarke. [Not ... usually. Hiro is a special case. The courts are a special case. But normally, he's a mocking, arrogant man with a lot of passion and anger. A lot of those things, really.] I don't want to screw him over, but I want him to actually think instead of looking for loop holes. Being clever is good. But it's like he doesn't know how to fucking use his cunning the right way.
Well, I did figure you weren't going to be happy with it. ( her voice is a touch lighter now, at least. ) I kind of wanted to get it over with as soon as possible.
( she exhales slowly, dragging a hand through her hair. this entire conversation has turned into something far bigger than she had actually expected. )
To be fair, I didn't know how to be cunning at that age, either. But I know you care about him, and I know you want him to learn and be safe. I want that, too. When he went missing on his excursion, I didn't- I had no idea where he was or who he was with, and I was worried, but he still came back. I guess that's all I can focus on when it comes to the people I care about -- as long as they come back.
I won't take him to the university if you don't want me to, but I'd like to be able to get away from court things for a day and do something normal with a friend.
-- and just so you don't think he went behind your back and asked me to do this, he didn't. He was really respectful about not being able to come see my office. Going to Redgate was my idea.
I'm probably gonna be a bit busy fighting and killing for the next month. Don't pencil me in for college quads anytime soon. [He says it so lightly, it's hard to tell if he means it.
Don't make it a thing, all right? Just do me a favor and try not to give him too many motivational speeches about how he's really worth something. You'd think that's a good thing, but those really amp up his ego. [They're the ones that Loki ended up having to stop doing after a while.]
Strictly boring school and book stuff, don't worry. Motivational speeches are actually more Bellamy's thing, anyway. He's the one you need to look out for with that.
I'm just going to make him take my notes for me and quiz me for finals. ( she's joking. mostly. )
( throughout the entirety of the next day, Jason will receive the Drabwurld equivalent of snapchats and vines. pictures of Hiro and Clarke around the univeristy, and short videos of them doing the most ridiculously mundane things together. it finishes out with a picture of Caer Scima at the end of the evening.
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( there's defeat in her voice, resignation; she doesn't want to push it any further than she has. the last two weeks have been hard enough without turning things with Jason sour, too. )
I'll leave him to you, then.
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It's been a rough month.]
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I wanted to take him to the university because it's right by Redgate, which is under Unseelie control. And that person you mentioned, Loki? One of the professors. Out of anywhere that would be safe, where he wouldn't need protection, I thought that the university would be it.
I was trying to be considerate of the court boundaries, since I thought that was where the problem was. I'm not an idiot, Jason. Being close to the Seelie would get me killed after what happened at the Citadel, and I'd never put Hiro in danger like that.
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Then ask next time. What it seemed to me is that you knew I wasn't gonna be happy with it, so you tried to cut corners from the start. I'm not a tight ass, Clarke. [Not ... usually. Hiro is a special case. The courts are a special case. But normally, he's a mocking, arrogant man with a lot of passion and anger. A lot of those things, really.] I don't want to screw him over, but I want him to actually think instead of looking for loop holes. Being clever is good. But it's like he doesn't know how to fucking use his cunning the right way.
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( she exhales slowly, dragging a hand through her hair. this entire conversation has turned into something far bigger than she had actually expected. )
To be fair, I didn't know how to be cunning at that age, either. But I know you care about him, and I know you want him to learn and be safe. I want that, too. When he went missing on his excursion, I didn't- I had no idea where he was or who he was with, and I was worried, but he still came back. I guess that's all I can focus on when it comes to the people I care about -- as long as they come back.
I won't take him to the university if you don't want me to, but I'd like to be able to get away from court things for a day and do something normal with a friend.
-- and just so you don't think he went behind your back and asked me to do this, he didn't. He was really respectful about not being able to come see my office. Going to Redgate was my idea.
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You can take him. Ask me next time, and be clear up front.
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( she's- far brighter now, smile coming across clear in her voice and she isn't even teasing in telling him he's the best. )
I'll ask next time, promise. And you better come with me at some point, too. We need to do something that isn't training or fighting.
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(But it's Jason. He probably does.)]
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( this- this is far better, far easier, and she's glad to slide back into this with him. )
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[He would shrug here in a casual way, but it's voice.]
I'll be all right.
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( still, there's a small edge of seriousness in her voice following that. )
Just be careful, okay? Coming back doesn't only apply to Hiro. It means you, too.
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( and, finally- )
Thanks for this.
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I'm just going to make him take my notes for me and quiz me for finals. ( she's joking. mostly. )
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We'll leave in the morning; I'll make sure to let you know when I get him back to the castle.
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enjoy that spam, Jason. enjoy it. )